This was taken 2 WEEKS ago... so I'm even bigger now!
Today I visited my midwife for my strep test and 34 (& 1/2) week checkup. I've been worrying about her "not moving enough" (I did the same thing with Ava) and needed to hear her heartbeat again and hear that I had nothing to worry about. I worry about her growing enough (yeah... can you believe it? LOOK at me!) because for some reason I've convinced myself that she's not as big as Ava was (shouldn't I be thankful for that?), but needed to be reassured... and I was. She's just really low and seems super comfy. I supposedly have a lot of amniotic fluid (which is a good thing) so I'm not feeling her move as much. My bloodpressure was high again, but as my labs came back good last time, I'm trying not to be anxious.
I'm so grateful I'm giving birth with my midwife, Louise as she gives me so much peace... but I'm not looking forward to giving birth again. I know that Ava's delivery was "less than ideal" with a 10 day hospital stay and bout with preeclampsia and all... so I can't really "compare" the two, but I keep fighting off the anxiety that comes from associating with my only experience of giving birth! It was unbelievable and memorable and there was so much that I wouldn't change one bit and I'm WELL aware that I was sustained by many many many many prayers in order for both of us to fare so well in the end, but realistically, even though I'm so grateful for all the good from her birth, when I think of this one... it's not like looking forward to a birthday party or a vacation... it's childbirth... and there's nothing "fun" about it.
Thanks a LOT, Eve!
That being said, I can't believe how SOON our new little miss will be here! It's really right around the corner! Over 34 weeks down and I have to say that this pregnancy totally flew by compared to Ava's ...and she came early, so I don't understand it. We're so excited but I have to admit that I'm in a bit of disbelief that in a little over a month a new little girl will be capturing our hearts and filling our home! I keep looking down at my belly and thinking... what the HECK?? How did it get this big so fast? Suddenly I feel very very very pregnant.
I haven't done anything to get ready. Nothing. No stocking up on diapers like I did with Ava. Ok, all the baby clothes are organized and in those air sucking storage bags inside clear plastic bins and clearly labeled by month... but that's it.
Realistically, she'll be in our room for the 1st 3 months, so I do have a bit of time to get things ready and transition our current "baby" into a real bed (I don't know how that's going to go down because she's a VERY fidgety sleeper!) and a different room (it's just across the hall) so the baby can use the crib when she finally needs it.
My biggest concerns are this ankle healing completely (it's still not all better) so I can carry these littles up and down the stairs and how I'll handle bedtimes and nursing while Ava still needs me so much. I also don't want to keep Shaun up all night because he really needs his sleep for his work and doesn't get enough already.
It'll all work out I'm sure, but any advice you could give from your "mom expertise" out there... feel free to share. I'm all ears. Thanks everyone!