So this little baby is turning out to be much like her Mum so far. Not too "punctual" (no matter how hard I try) and loving to sleep. Tomorrow I have an appt at the hospital and with the midwife following a non-stress test. I'm always relieved when I get to hear her heartbeat and find out all sounds ok. She's a smarty pant's, though and a bit like her "non-confrontational" Daddy in the sense that she probably knows that this week has been one FULL of stresses and it's best she stay right where she is until the "storm" has passed.
I've been meeting with a lot of asbestos contractors and literally been living on the phone and driving back and forth between meetings at the house trying to take care of this "asbestos" situation at the new/old house. FINALLY found a good contractor who had all the licences he needed and a heart as well. He gave us a HUGE financial break and even though the cleanup of the asbestos around the house and dumpster, etc... will still cost us thousands of dollars, his quote was much less than the others that we had recieved. His thousands seemed like a deal compared to the other quotes.
He was supposed to start the work this morning and all was set to go before the snowstorm hit tomorrow (and snowstorms bring babies, so I wanted to get everything squared away before I potentially went to the hospital too) ...and I was breathing a sigh of relief that the crew would have a perfect day to work on everything today... then I recieved a phone call last night from him saying that when he rushed back from Framingham (picking up supplies for the job) to get to city hall in time to get a permit for the work... someone caused some confusion to the point of him not being able to obtain the permit and the work had to be stopped for today.
Someone from the office also made a comment to him about how they essentially knew all about who I was and how I was notorious for doing work without permits! I don't know why they would say this!? I honestly was so furious. I know that nobody likes being talked badly about or lied about but that this "untruth" directly affected our ability to get work done and caused an entire crew of men to be out of work that otherwise would have been able to... was frustrating to say the least. Turns out that the person who said this has never even met me nor have they ever been to our house. I tend to have a pretty long fuse... but I was so upset last night that I couldn't sleep.
This morning I woke up feeling like no matter what I did someone was just going to cause problems for us. I just wanted to cry.
Shaun was supposed to spend tonight with Cheyanne because we don't know when I'll have the baby & he'll probably be home for the weekend and I never like to take him away from visiting with her unless it's an emergency, but now we have to cover the entire dumpster and ground surrounding the house for 8 feet with plastic and tarps in order to protect the area, so that the men can come back after the storm and do their work. If we don't do all of this... they might make us dig up the ground for 3" surrounding the entire house and our price that we were given will go up potentially dramatically.
I don't understand why people who don't even know us are going through such trouble to cause problems for us. My anger is subsiding to pity and I will pray for this person that their conscience is pricked to know that their words can really hurt others when spoken without proof.
All we wanted was to fix up a house in a safe area to raise our children in and to potentially help improve the city.
*sigh*
Will you all please say a prayer that nothing else goes wrong and I can finally shift my focus where I'd love to be able to allow it to be? On the birth of my new daughter and the joy she will bring to our family? I feel so guilty that the last few days of just "Ava and I" have been so preoccupied with taking care of this mess instead of being able to just spend time with her and show her how much I love her, so she will not be so affected when I go to the hospital and am away from her for a few days. Ok... now I really am crying.
I know I don't usually write a discouraging post like this. I'm sure I'll be all better later today or by tomorrow, but I appreciate the prayers.
I cannot believe that! I must say that you seem to be handling these setbacks with much more calmness and grace than I'd be able to manage. I will certainly keep you in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteMan Aimee... I'm trying but I rehearsed my "I'm so angry I want to tell ALL of you off BIG time" speech to Shaun 3x last night and all night in my dreams. He was amused that I remembered everything I wanted to say. When I walked in to City Hall today, I'd gotten it all out of my system and behaved a lot better than I would've yesterday... I suppose that's a good thing. Thank you so much for the prayers. I really appreciate!
DeleteWhat is WRONG with that person??? Seriously, there are just some people that feel that they must "police" others. I'm so sorry for all this, I will definitely pray. It's the last thing you need to stress over right now, but I understand it's probably impossible not to.
ReplyDeleteHey, here's a humiliating story that might cheer you up: my oldest son one time was giving me MAJOR trouble in a store one day (Mary, if you're reading this, you might remember this one!); he was lying down on the ground of the store, running away from me, and running away with the cart, ect. I was so angry that I finally did what my mom would do when I did this to her: I tried to be a good mom and carried out with the threat that I kept threatening him with--I put him back in the car.
Now I realize that these days, you can't do this anymore as there are laws that prevent us from doing this, but at this time I honestly didn't know this. Besides, I had one more thing to get, so I put him in the car and ran back to the store and quickly got my item and checked everything out within less than 5 minutes. As I was leaving with my cart to get back to my son, a store employee ran after me to tell me that the store manager wanted to talk to me; that they saw what I did and that they called the police on me! Well, all this did was send me into a panic and anger and I became very defensive, trying to explain that my son was in the car for less than 5 minutes (however, he was in there much longer b/c they dragged me back to the store to yell at me for this), and they told me that they didn't actually call the cops but they would the next time I did something like that. I was so humiliated and livid, I couldn't even form words.
Sometimes people think they are helping, but most of the time--they need to butt out!!
I also have to think to myself every time I see a store employee roll their eyes or mutter under their breath about a child misbehaving in a store, "If you would let us discipline our children in public, this behavior wouldn't happen!"
Anyway, more than what I should have said. :-)
Praying for you and I will pray that this 'helpful' person, butts out.
I know. Sometimes people just don't "help". I think the person who "reported" us and even the person who said this yesterday were in fact not in the least trying to be "helpful", though... thus the need to pray for them once my anger had subsided. Keep up the prayers. I appreciate it!
DeleteI'm sorry :( I haven't posted specifics on my blog, but we've dealt with our fair share of extremely mean people this year. People so self-centered and uncaring that they ruin things for us just because they could. I've really found this year that there truly is evil in the world, there's no other word for it, there are evil people who don't care about others. I'm so sorry you're having to deal with that too :(
ReplyDeleteYeah. I know you've had your tough stuff this year. We need to pray for these people because honestly... can they really be that happy??? I keep saying, we need to pray that somehow God turns all of our trials into blessings. I know he can. I know he will in the end.
DeleteI'm so sorry. Marijuanna. I'm sure it will all work out, and we'll say some extra prayers that it does!. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Amelia. Back atcha. I really appreciate the prayers and love.
DeleteWill be pray that all of this extra stress levels off and you and your family can enjoy a wonderful babymoon together.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Joy. I'm trying to turn my gaze to my babies and let go knowing I've done all I can on my end. I am truly blessed in many ways and need to just refocus on that and give God the opportunity to turn all this around. He will in the end.
DeleteMarijanna, you made me tear up I feel so awful for you. Gosh, what craziness you are going through and while you wait on baby and a storm. EEK!
ReplyDeleteSending love and prayers. Gosh darn it, if I were closer I'd be bringing a hug and a meal too.
I was seriously in tears today. Honestly, it's mainly because I feel this whole thing is stealing my time from my babies! I feel like it's taking me away from Ava when I really want to be spending this time with her and the stress isn't good for the pregnancy. I just want to focus on this joyful time and I've felt "robbed" of my joy. I won't have it anymore, though. I know I've done all I can on my end to correct everythign and am refocusing on my family and letting God take our trials and turn them into blessings. I know he can and will. I know he sees it all and he knows us and he knows the truth. I'll pray for those causing problems... they obviously need it.
DeleteAnd I'll take those hugs... would take the meal too, but you have a busy weekend over with your girls, so enjoy a piece of cake for me instead, ok?
Ah Marijanna, so very sorry you are going through all of this.
ReplyDeletePraying all will work out for you! I'll be looking for some good news! :)
Thank you so much, Tina! I'm pretty strong, but this has been weighing on me. I finally am letting it go, though and refocusing. Good news coming soon either way!
DeleteBTW... your girls room looks great! xo
Oh, Marijanna--you poor thing! (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteA long time ago, an older man, came up to me after Mass and told me to try kneeling down in the morning and saying to God, "I give this to You" and he said then just go on with your day, he said it would help. (I was going through a really hard time in my life at that time) He was right though, and those words have been powerful over the years for me. Try that. Just give it to God.
Love you!
Thank you Jamie. I did give it back to Him. He is handling it all, I'm sure. It's time to focus on the babies and trust I've done all I can. Love you too. xo
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